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  “Again, what do you think you’re doing?” I asked him, eyes wide as saucers.

  “Trying to seduce you…”

  He moved closer to me, backing me up against the door. He leaned down and lightly kissed the side of my mouth.

  He said softly, “Do you want me, Sweets?”

  “Wh–wh…” I swallowed and cleared my throat. “What?” I managed to finally get out in between him kissing my neck, my face…

  “I didn’t think I asked a trick question… It was a very simple question with a yes or no answer…” he said to me, stopping his lip assault and bringing his eyes to mine.

  My words caught in my throat at the deep darkness in his eyes. The desire for me was shadowing him, draping him. It seemed to be consuming him, and I felt he was almost over the edge.

  This was what I wanted, wasn’t it? I just… I didn’t want it because he thought I was going on a date with someone else.

  I said to him, “I don’t think me wanting you is the right question.”

  “It’s not? What is then?”

  I took a deep breath and said as strong as I could, “Do you really want me?”

  Josh smirked at me. “I think that’s evident, Sweets.”

  I quickly shook my head and brought my hands to his chest, trying to create space between us.

  “No, it isn’t really. You’re only doing this because I told you I was going out with someone else.”

  “Do you really believe that?”

  “Josh, you were planning to say goodbye to me tonight. Don’t deny that,” I said to him.

  I tried to push him away from me, but he just moved closer to me and placed his hands along my face.

  “Yeah, well, I changed my fucking mind the moment I opened my front door. And I’ll be damned if you think I’m going to let you go out with another man. You belong to me, Sweets, but it seems you’ve forgotten that…” Josh leaned in to me, bringing his lips inches from mine. He said, “I guess I have to show you, so there will no longer be any doubt.”

  His kiss didn’t start out soft…no, it went straight to hard and possessive and down right mind blowing. I couldn’t do anything but wrap my arms around his neck and hold on for dear life as his tongue claimed my mouth, my soul…

  The remaining parts of my thong were melting into me I was so soaked with need. I could feel a hard bulge pressing in my lower stomach, and I really wanted to find out just how blessed Josh was.

  When he pulled apart from me his hands were still on my cheeks.

  “Fuck, I’ve missed you,” he said to me.

  I smiled. “I’ve missed you too.”

  We stayed that way, his hands on the side of my face, thumb caressing my cheeks, and I had my hands resting on a well–defined lower back.

  “Tell me you want me…”

  I looked in his eyes, and I couldn’t lie to him… I didn’t care anymore if I make a fool out of myself… this was where I wanted to be, and he was who I wanted, so I nodded.

  “I want you…” I said softly.

  “Tell me you wore this dress for me…” Josh gripped my hair and pulled my head back.

  His lips went to my throat, and I finally let out the moan I’ve been suppressing the moment his hands touched me.

  “Yes… I wore this for you…” I admitted.

  Josh looked at me. “You’re not going out with Stanley!”

  I sighed. I know it wasn’t a question but more like a proclamation, but I still shook my head and said softly. “No.”

  Josh smiled and again went for the zipper to my dress.

  Chapter 10

  Kenya

  Josh didn’t waste time getting the zipper down, and I didn’t stop the dress from falling. Josh’s hands roamed down my arms to my back and cupped my butt. He pulled me flush up against him and then lifted. I got the hint and wrapped my legs around his waist, and he walked us to his bedroom.

  As he kissed my neck, I felt like it was time to tell him what I tried to before, however, I need to approach it differently. When we got to his room, I unraveled myself from him, and he stepped back. His eyes raked over me from head to toe, and he shook his head.

  “Sweets, you are so beautiful…”

  I blushed, as usual, and turned my head.

  He removed his t–shirt, and I finally got to see this phenomenal upper body I knew he kept hidden behind his clothes. Josh looked like his chest was carved by God himself. He was cut everywhere and his abs, oh my…

  Josh walked up to me, or rather stalked, however way you want to say it, which made me back up until I felt my legs hit his bed. Josh’s hands then ran all over my body slowly and methodically as if he was memorizing every curve I had.

  I said, while he was distracted touching me, “Josh, I have to tell you that I’m not as experienced as you’re probably used to.”

  Josh looked in my eyes. “I know, baby.”

  He couldn’t possibly understand, I knew, and I couldn’t let him go further until he did. Josh moved his hands to the back of my head and was bringing me to his lips when I slipped away from him.

  “No, Josh, just let me say this.” I took a deep breath and said, “It’s not just that I’m not as experienced. I mean, I’m not experienced at all.”

  Josh’s face frowned confusion etched on his face. “I’m sorry what?”

  I sighed deeply. “Technically speaking, I have never been with a man, sexually.”

  Josh, probably stunned into silence, sat down on his bed. He sort of looked through me instead of at me.

  “Technically speaking?”

  “Okay well, technically and officially,” I added.

  Josh remained silent, which was making me extremely nervous. Why in the hell did I say something? Because idiot, he would have found out on his own anyway.

  I watched Josh run his hand over his face, and he sighed.

  Trying not to sound panicked, I said softly, “Josh, please say something.”

  He shook his head and looked at me. “I mean, what can I say? You’re telling me you’re a virgin, Sweets. You have to know that changes things.”

  Oh no! Think, Summer.

  I walked up to him said quickly, “No Josh, this doesn’t change anything. Okay look, this wasn’t by choice. I’ve tried to get rid of this burden… I mean, there was this one time in college…”

  “Whoa, Sweets,” Josh said, quickly putting his hands up. “I really don’t need to hear about you and someone else right now or how about ever… I really don’t need that visual…”

  I moved closer to him. “Okay well, what can I say to you, Josh? Because all I know is how happy I am that I get to experience this with you. You’re the one I want to give myself to, Josh. You’re the one I trust and no one else.” I ran my hands through his hair as he looked up at me. “You’re the only man I want to touch me; the only one I want to learn how to please. I want to be yours in every way. Please let me.”

  Josh put his head down and then closed his eyes. I concentrated on the rise and fall of his chest as I tried not to let the anxiety creep up in me. When he looked back at me, I could see the sincerity as well as uncertainty in his eyes.

  “Sweets, I’m flattered, really I am, you have no idea how much, but…”

  “No, Josh, no buts.” I started pacing emphatically, waving my arms, hoping what I was about to say would convince him. “I don’t want to hear you tell me that we should wait, or that my first time should be special. To me, this is special. Being with you is what I want. I want you to be the first man to truly touch me in this way, and I want you to teach me how to please you. Don’t deny me this.”

  I finally stopped in front of him when he didn’t respond to me. I met his eyes, and he intently focused on my face.

  “Are you finished?” he admonished.

  I nodded because quite frankly I was. I had nothing else to say to convince him. I was standing in front of him half naked, just like I was with Wayne before. If he doesn’t want me, then I’m doomed to be a
virgin forever.

  Josh moved me closer to him and positioned me between his legs. His hands traveled up my stocking leg to the guarder belt on my waist.

  He unclipped the clasps. “As I was saying before, Sweets, I am flattered beyond belief, but…” he looked up at me and held my eyes. He then reached down and removed each of my five and a half inch heels one by one. “Did you really think you being a virgin would stop me? I’ve been thinking about this moment for a long time, and there is no way I’m not exploring this fantastic body of yours.”

  I started to say something, but he gave me a look that made me shut my mouth.

  He then said, “When I said this changes things, I just meant my plans for your body will have to be altered this time.” He caressed my legs at the same time, bringing down my stocking on each leg and removing them. “I’m going to definitely make this night special for you.”

  He kissed my chest with light feather movements that made me burn in between my legs.

  “I plan to pleasure each and every part of your body slowly and thoroughly, making this night something you will never forget.”

  Josh moved my legs so I would be able to straddle him, and he pulled me on his lap. He then got up and turned around and laid me flat on his bed. He positioned himself next to me and ran his hands from my neck down between my breasts to my stomach.

  He then looked me in my eyes and said, “Because I’m not a complete ass, are you sure you’re ready for this? Because the way I’m feeling right now, once I get started I don’t think I’m going to be able to stop.”

  I took the hand that was currently rubbing my stomach and moved it south to a part of me that’s been dying to feel his touch again.

  When he started stroking me, I said softly, “I’m sure…”

  I brought his face down to mine so I could do what had become my favorite past time. Our kiss was slow and methodical, and the dance our tongues were doing matched to the rhythm of his fingers on my sex.

  He started off slowly, making slow circles of my clit. The feeling he was giving me was unbelievable and so good I needed to feel more. I started to crave the roughness he gave me before, so I started moving my hips, which brought on another sensation that, oh my goodness, was driving me crazy….

  I called his name softly and moaned as he kept moving his finger around and around while he kissed down my neck.

  When his finger entered me, his thumb continued its assault on my clit, and he claimed one of my taunt and ample nipples with his lips. I suddenly arched my body up as I felt a sensation starting to build within me. My body is screaming for him, my skin burned with anticipation for his lips to touch all of me.

  “Oh God, Joshua… Josh…”

  I felt it building. His finger moved faster and started applying pressure on my clit as he continued to move. I gripped his shoulder and his hair as a wave of pleasure fell over me.

  “Holy mother of….!” I cried out with force of a dam braking.

  “…Yes, baby…that’s it, give me what I’ve been waiting for! Shit, that was so fucking sexy…Do you want to come again?” he asked me, and I shook my head.

  “I can’t… you can’t make me… Ohhhh Shit!” I screamed as another wave hit me instantly.

  Damn, I didn’t know what he was doing to me with just two fingers, but I was losing my ever loving mind.

  Josh pulled his hand from my panties and yanked down the garter and my thong and threw them somewhere behind him. He pushed open my legs and got in between them.

  “I love watching you come. You look so fucking beautiful. I wonder if you taste as sweet as you look.”

  “Josh.” I sighed as he started kissing down my stomach, then my inner thighs.

  I started to squirm as the first lick gratified my clit. I shot up from the bed as a new sensation then attacked my body.

  Josh lightly pushed me back down as his tongue moved around the lips of me, and I swear the moment he sucked on my most sensitive spot I started seeing stars. I mean, I thought his finger gave me an unyielding pleasure so strong, but I was wrong. A feeling or sensation brought on by this man’s tongue and mouth had me speaking in another language.

  “Mmmm, just what I thought, sweet as candy, baby, so fucking good… Come for me again, baby, don’t hold back.”

  He buried his face in between my thighs again and pulled me closer.

  I grabbed anything I could as he continued to bring me to orgasm after orgasm after gut wrenching orgasm. I could do nothing but grab the sheets around me, the pillows, his hair, his shoulders. I swear I was digging my nails in his back, and he never stopped giving one of the most pleasurable feelings I had ever had.

  And the things Josh was saying to me, telling me how good I tasted and how he can’t wait to be inside me added together with the deep penetrating voice he was using, and I came apart that very moment.

  He said to me just as I came, “I can’t wait to bury my dick in your hot wet pussy baby. Are you ready for me?”

  I honestly should have said hell no and ran away as fast as I could, but I didn’t. I wanted this, and I wanted him and the way he was making me feel now, I knew it was only going to get better.

  Josh wiped his mouth on the side of my thigh and stood. I just realized he still had his pants on, but I could clearly see a very sizable hard on coming from the front of them.

  I watched heavily sated already as he unzipped his pants and let them drop to the floor. My eyes bulged out of my face, and I started backing away from him… I mean, the size of that thing really had me not believing that this was going to turn out good for me.

  I closed my eyes and felt the bed move slightly as he traveled up my body. He kissed my stomach and then moved to my already sensitive nipples. He fondled both breasts with his tongue before he moved up my collarbone to my neck.

  By the time he got to my lips, I was hot and wanton for more of what he was doing to me.

  He kissed me softly, and I wrapped my arms around his neck to bring him flushed up against me.

  He pulled back slowly and propped himself up on his elbows. I felt him hard and long on my stomach, and I started to wiggle with anticipation.

  Josh smiled at me for the first time all day, “Relax, baby, okay? The hard part is coming, but I promise it won’t last very long, and the pleasure after that will make the pain worth it.”

  I nodded my head but didn’t say anything. I couldn’t. I was surprised I could think so I knew speaking was out of the question.

  Josh asked, “Do you trust me?”

  I nodded again, but he shook his head. He caressed my cheek with his knuckles.

  “No, baby, I need to hear you say it.”

  I cleared my throat and said softly still, “I trust you, Josh.”

  Josh moved off me for a second, and I closed my eyes. I heard a drawer open then I heard rustling of a wrapper.

  The next thing I knew he was back on top of me, and this time I felt the head of him at the mouth of my womanly goodness. This was it. I was about to be changed forev‒

  “Oh my God!” I exclaimed loudly.

  “I know, baby, just relax okay…”

  I started moving back from him.

  “No wait, Josh… Just… Fuckkkkkk!”

  I felt him move in and out slowly, but he continued to push inside me. When I felt the breakthrough, I cried out again and brought my hands to my face.

  “It’s almost over, baby, just hold on. It’ll get better,” he promised, and I nodded frantically shutting my eyes.

  Josh didn’t move at first, allowing my body to stop fighting the intrusion and then finally he moved his hips away from me then slowly moved forward again. I felt fuller than I did before, and when I opened my eyes and looked down I saw he wasn’t even all the way in me.

  “Joshua, please…” I begged, the throbbing and aching feeling was becoming more than I could handle.

  “Fuck… okay, Sweets, just bear with me…”

  He then bent down and started kissin
g me. I grabbed the side of his head as I felt him pull out almost completely, then back in again, inching closer and closer to filling me completely. Then he started a rhythm that started to sooth the soreness and created another sensation that was beginning to feel amazing.

  I moaned, and Josh stopped kissing me and sat up a little.

  “Does that feel better?”

  I nodded. “Oh yess… please don’t stop don’t…” a wave hit me in that moment and I called out his name and started moving my hips frantically, trying to chase the overwhelming feeling that overcame me.

  Josh was true to his word. He made everything feel amazing just by the touch of his hands on my body, his soft lips and tongue caressing my nipples. Everything was just amazing. I felt him pick up his pace, and I knew he had to be all the way in when I felt his balls starting to graze me.

  “Sweets, I don’t know how long I can hold on… This feels so fucking good, baby, shit… your pussy is tight as fuck and so hot and wet and damnnnn….” He dragged out as he continued to move in and out of me slowly and tenderly.

  The pace he was going brought more pleasure than I ever thought possible. I even dared to wrap my legs around his waist.

  “Yes, baby, just like that… ” He breathed out.

  The moment I crashed, he crashed with me, and when I say that was one of the best feelings I had ever experienced in my life, I’m not exaggerating.

  Josh collapsed on top of me and held me close. We both were breathing heavy, and our bodies were drenched with sweat.

  After a minute, Josh moved out of me slowly and walked naked into his bathroom. I watched his perfect toned and defined muscular body as he walked, feeling drained and tired and still fucking horny…

  I was sore as shit, and didn’t care. I wanted that feeling again of him inside me, filling me. I wanted to feel his body on top of me, and I wanted to hear his voice tell me how good I felt and how good I was making him feel. I didn’t know if what he was saying to me was standard sex talk, but I didn’t care. I longed for him to be inside me again.

  I felt his arms move under me, and I realized I had dozed off.